RIP

My hearts feeling real heavy right now. Hard to believe Michael is gone. I feel like I grew up with him. Like he was a member of my family. Listening to the radio I hear DJ asking what are people's favorite songs and playing them. I can say I dont have a favorite as they all are. From "ABC" to "Thriller" on to "if your black or white" even "Ben" (a song about one of the most digusting creatures I know of). All his song were at different time period when I was in different places. During those times what ever was popolular was my favorite and continues to be. I'm thinking of so many good people that have moved on (Bernie, Luther, my parents, family members, etc. ) and this really brings me down.

Last night was truly a hard one. It really helped to have my two favorite people with me (my grandsons) to help lighten the feelings. The three year old asked me why I was sad (he noticed) I told him a friend had gone away. He said he was sorry and continued to demand my attention. Even though the two argued, fussed and fight, this helped me in so many ways to lighten the feeling I had felt and to try to truly enjoy the now. Thanks Lisa for letting them spend the night.

Today I am smiling as I listen to the tributes and songs of a true legend, some songs I had forgotten about. I promise myself I will try to spend today and the future in the now and enjoy all that it has to offer as life is truly to short.